Saturday, March 26, 2005
12:02 PM
Heh. Seriously.. I'm sick and tired of life. I know people won't like me if I returned to being the way I was in tbe past. Including her. That's why I made the effort to change. And changed I did. But guess what? It's even worse. Life hasn't gotten better. Instead of being the aggressor I've become the victim.
At least in the past I could wasn't pissed on. I wasn't the one suffering. I'm fucking tempted to revert to the way I was, if only it wasn't for that damn promised I made to myself.
I know I know. Promises are made to be broken. But still.. I'm a man of my word. I'll feel really fucked up if I break my promises, let alone those I made to myself. God gives us challenges we can handle and we only come out stronger. But this shit is really, really insane.
I can't handle the pressure exerted on me. I'm turning more fucking sucidial day by day. Is this what's life meant to be? If it is I envy those who have gone from the face of this world.
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Whatever.
No one cares.
No one understands.
I'm alone
in this fucking shit wor|d
with its dog-eat-dog society.
Can't people be nice
to others for once?
Can't people make the effort
to be more sensitive?
In this immature world
of timeless insensibility
I drift a|one.
